"Space, Flesh & Woe" Album 2012
new blues -
well I came here to fight all these devil's around
leave 'em tongueless, and toothless, and far underground
may the eyes of my God be azure and blue
may the tips of my fingers find oceans in you
well I came here to put all the 'ol dogs down
tell 'em where to go to really know that all I sow is the light of my lies
open sore -
I am an open sore these days
lots of open wars these days
well, I'll be dead soon anyways
and all the time, the way I feel about you…
I am a moaning whore these days
a gushing lush of midnight plays
over and over I can't explain
why, with all this flesh I still complain
and often times the way I feel about you
is often tied to how long I'm without you
lucky boy to get a glance at happenstance
how often does she look right through you?
and often times the way I feel about you
is often tied to how long i'm without you
march! -
just another piece of mind that wasn't mine
said with my father's eyes
just another missing peace of mind
just another piece of mind that wasn't mine
said with my father's eyes
just a missing peace of mind, ya know?
have the captain act his wage
his cap is off
the furrows in his brow are the same which complicate our own
climb with me, umbilically
there is no space
except for us to grow
tiny specks of light which God did throw
everything's a part of me
my shirt is off and everything's my fault
just a pile of words which makes me cough
won't you just ravage me, savagely?
of all the bleeding coughs...
just a pile of bones will get me off
lover, do you love me? -
lover, do you love me?
at all forever?
or am I just a waste of your time?
darling, would you believe
we're under the same weather?
and hell is just a place in my spine?
babe, if we were older
I'd ask if I could marry you
I'd build a little home in your skies
but, girl you are a tempest
dressed up absolutely
but, girl you are a chink in my time
you say that you love me
but I don't believe you
I tore out my heart
to comfort and feed you
and now...
with a bit of time and a bit of tongue
bit of a twist of your wrist
with a bit of scratch and a bit of pull
vin a bit of time you'll be mine
what? wait, what is wrong?
do you wanna talk?
do you wanna eat me alive?
stop, just wait
just wait a minute
is this how we end?
you say that you love me
but I don't believe you
cause I smell a liar
and I don't believe you
and now...
when a bit of teeth bit a bit of skin
a bit of blood on your hands
and a bit of boy, and a bit of friend
a little joke all on me
with a little push off a little ledge
a little sin soon forgotten
jilted lovers -
I already love you
we are already there
cause time is such a rambler
we are always everywhere
to drift on the ocean
to live in the sea
I can not misappreciate
the effect it has on me
space, flesh & woe
well I feel so old
space, flesh & woe
well I feel so damned with soul
fashioned of driftwood
land legs are gone
I'm reading too much into
where we really haven't gone
cause this is all about jilted lovers
and this is not about nothin' else
we made war beneath these covers
I need peace with someone else
space, flesh & woe
well I feel so old
space, flesh & woe
well I feel so damned with soul
oh, don't waste me time, my dear
I need it all 'till I am free from here
war is to oil -
war is to oil
what fuck is to fluid
I once gave a damn
you damn right I blew it
I was a creature
in this film feature
and always a sinner
and always a preacher
and now, I can't shake it from my tree
sex is a pistol
to kill politicians
we wring-out our sheets
as bloody petitions
I had my mind blown
a little wide open
and now I am certain
that you are a serpent
and now…
war is to oil
what fuck is to fluent
you weren't so sure
'till we got congruent
we are so bound
by such colorful shackles
lipstick on children
evening news cackles
and now…
war is to oil
and act of contrition
I need no permission
to spit ammunition
I am just here
to make a short story long
war is to oil
what man is to woman
and now…
sometimes -
sometimes
I find
sometimes
I lie
sometimes
i find
sometimes
I shine
wand'rin' eyes -
wand'rin' eyes…
wand'rin' eyes...
get me in trouble right on the double
I was right...
wand'rin' eyes…
find me new scenes inside of her jeans
I'll be nice...
smilin' thighs…
we have a thing in spite of your ring
I'll be quiet...
mornin' lies…
such remedies fall with such ease
pants on fire…
wand'rin' eyes…
in the light of the Moon -
and I really don't know
why you really did go
baby, but I...
I'm taking it bad
every day I'm so sad
baby, but I...
I read it somewhere
that we shouldn't be scared
cause we are all alone
all alone...
in the light of the moon
we snuck up to your room
heaving chests
holding noise in our throats
while all the world rests
all alone...
and it's really not fair
that you really don't care
maybe tonight...
I can meet you somewhere
and drown in your hair
baby, cause I...
I'm living this life
outside of my home
all alone…
"I am going to steal you" EP 2011
-Thanksgiving Day-
I woke up with a hole in my head
filled with the feeling I was better-off dead
you rolled over and said, it's Thanksgiving Day
I made the couch, but I missed the parade
cause it's back home and we're so far away
you fell asleep, and I watched a show about war
I would like to find a girl who mends my bones and gently licks my wounds
money drips through my cupped hands
I need a job, but no job needs me
or my junky-looking hair
and it seems to me there is no love
not unless it's hiding in a darker place
I really shouldn't go
I would like to find a girl who mends my bones and gently licks my wounds
a pretty girl who makes me laugh, picks me up and holds me like a womb
oh, you gotta let me open the shades
cause I just need a bit of true light
absence and a bit of true light
my throat is raw, I smoke too much cause I'm out of touch
but oh, anyway
my days are filled, busy finding God or busy rotting away
we shall see
oh, you gotta let me open the shades
cause I just need a bit of true light
absence and a bit of true light
absence in a bit
and if you're done then let me go...
-25-
I didn't black out on my birthday
that's something I tend to do
I didn't drive drunk on my birthday
I'm getting older, it's true
when will I find a girl with the time for a nickel and two dimes?
I'd write a song for you
it complicates things that I'm younger
and you're married too
I didn't black out on my birthday
but I still said some dumb shit to you
you bite my ear and call me a boy,
man, what's a boy to do,
except write a song for you?
-Alarms-
you called me up the other day
with bad thoughts and razorblades
promise me you won't kill yourself tonight?
maybe...
then came the night you nearly did
you showed your mom her bleeding kid
they checked you in when you were trying to check out
ain't it funny?
maybe...
I really wish you didn't cut yourself
I know, I know, it's easy for me to ask of you
I wish you really didn't get so sad
at least not when I'm without wheels and weeks away from you
you stayed a bit in the looney bin
no phone to tell me how you've been
you're painting pictures of castles in the clouds
trying to ween the voices from your head
then things were good on medicine
until the day you did it again
you carved alarms all down your arms
and my head is pounding
I really wish you didn't cut yourself
I know, I know, it's easy for me to ask of you
I wish you really didn't get so sad
at least not when I'm without wheels and weeks away
without wheels and states away from you
-Stabings Toward the Truth-
don't just miss me cause you have to
miss me cause you do
and in a perfect world I'd be unhappy next to you
I once told you that I loved you
and back then it was true
but nowadays when I say it
I just don't picture you
don't belittle all my little stabings toward the truth
the one day when I land a thrust
I'll be so far from youth
and so much for good health and well being what it is
I'd love to cum inside of you, but we can't afford no kids
I'd grow my hair for you
I'd bite you up and down
follow you around
break my heart and tell me I'm your man
then I'd cut my hair for you
-Esqueleton-
there were nights we talked as if on a first date
but those were the nights your husband worked late
it isn't easy being friends with you when all I want to do is jump your bones
and dance with your esqueleton, and grow old skipping stones
we would flirt, flirt as if we were both free
but we were both taken, in actuality
it isn't easy getting close when i know that you're leaving in July
oh, my new love, sure seems like hell
I would love to build a home
in your hands, and heart, and bones
I would love to build our home
with my hands, and heart, and bones
our home of skin and bones
tangled up in choices younger people made years ago
we recognize their faces, their minds we don't know
I put my arms through you cause I want to wear you out
oh, my new love, sure feels like hell
I would love to wreck his home
with my hands, and teeth, and bones
I would love to build our home
on his heart, and back, and bones
I hate living alone in my home of skin and bones
we're just skin and bones...
"the year I grew my hair real long" 2009
- To Live To Roam -
long ago I was born
far away I will die
of other certains, this is love
stick a needle in my eye
won't someone come and rescue me?
too much talk of the economy
great forests they must sometimes burn
and raindrops sometimes fall on me
can you just turn upside down?
pardon me, my love
can you just turn upside down?
I need you more than light
I was born to live to roam
and whatever you're ever wearing is my home
do you think these times are crushing us?
all sharp corners veiled with foam
and you look like new york when you smile
and the truth depends, how heavy was his tongue?
my subconscious lips are taut too young
I wanna be with you for the rest of the while
can you just turn upside down?
pardon me, my love
can you just turn upside down and face the other way?
I need you more than light
- You Don't Hear The Dead Whine -
let down your hair, girl
so I can get to know ya
it's so easy now that winter is summer
write down your thoughts now
cause I would love to read them
on a long plane-ride away from here
I know the reason you're all alone
I get the feeling you're just no fun
you said you feel like you're the product of a rape
I can't forget, no, I can't remember
I'm alone here with you and I
oh, B.C., V.D., A.D.H.D., I.V., A.C., I see T.V. giving candy to your kids
no peace for the all alone
will I learn when I'm far from home
that calm is earned through this life of flesh and bone?
people, all, come on!
lead me short and narrow
I'm the king of nothin' goin on
you're the queen of gallows
people, all, come on!
artificial sunshine!
I can't seem to stall the coming shot
though, you don't hear the dead whine
just a little bit of time ago
I was a boy, and barely did I notice
the howl of centuries of men who came before
I am sad enough to drink
I am full of cum and ink
there is not much more to know
people, all, come on!
lead me short and narrow
I'm the king of nothin' goin on
you're the queen of gallows
people, all, come on!
livin' like it's all fine
she has got the eyes of half her age
though, you don't hear the dead whine
let down your hair, girl
so I can get to know ya
I can't climb your new haircut
I know the reason you're all alone
I get the feelin' you're just no fun
you said you feel like you're the product of a rape
- I Like You More Than I'd Like to -
I like you more than I'd like to
I like you, and you like me too
I fit you just like a grave blanket
but you don't mind as long as you're warm
and when you're gone, I can't go on
as pathetic as it sounds
when I'm alone I whisper jokes you'd find funny if you were around
I like you more than I'd like to
I'll live with you if you'll live with me too
you make me feel 22 again
I make you smoke during the day
and when you're gone I can't go on
as pathetic as that sounds
when I'm alone I whisper jokes you'd find funny if you were around
and all the leaves agree
they're safer in the trees
though, a golden death below...
and all the trees agree
that summer always leaves
their skeletons stark against snow...
I like you more than I'd like to
when we go out I only talk to you
that night we drank all of that wine on your friends kitchen floor
the time we got stoned in that family friend's bathtub
and when you're gone I can't go on
as pathetic as it sounds
when I'm alone I whisper jokes you'd find funny if you were around
-Panic King Gills/A Bit of Soul -
you are heart-stringing me along
all across your stage
I've not the years for all of this
as I gain and lose age
I am of spider-webbing glass
you, of panic king gills
I found a fitting friend of sound
lalala lalala lalala lalalala
been in love
been in trouble
been in debt
been in double
but never have I been in such a joke obscene!
and never has it ever been so clear to me
been insane
been insulted
been inward
been inside you
been in paris
been in handcuffs
been in utero
been in absentia
but never have I been inclined to be indoors
or to watch, with dimming eyes, a future best met on all fours
and they go unnoticed
and they lie
and they smile
and they writhe
and they go unnoticed
if I had a bit of soul
I'd sell it all to rock and roll
I'd sell it to her pennys by-the-pound
I'd sell it to her if she were around
and never has the timing been on all our sides
and never could you taste the stench of failure in our vapid eyes
and they go unnoticed
and they dig
and they plant
and they rave
and they rant
unnoticed
and they live in a mind
full of snapped moral vines
have you noticed?
and you sit
and you leave
and they laugh
and they feed
unnoticed
-The Devil's Bitter Tongue -
the devil's got his hand on my shoulder
tellin' me he'll see me when I get a little older
he says he's got a place for me
where my soul will burn
beneath the sea
the devil's got his eyes on my baby
lets me know he's been thinkin bout her lately
he tells me this with the same 'ol grin
that he wore when he taught poor eve to sin
the devil's got his hand on my shoulder
tellin' me he'll see me when I get a little older
I've got news for you, my friend
it'll be a cold day where you live before I reach my end
-New Years -
we welcome the new year
in the dead winter cold
we celebrate with friends
friends new and old
we wear silly hats, and we blow silly horns
we check each other's sides for last years thorns
oh, will this be my year?
no, this will be my year
drunken resolutions of what to do and what to not
to stop smoking cigarettes
and to quit buying pot
to keep the whiskey closed, and maybe just stick to the beer
and if you haven't the will, well there's always next year
oh, will this be my year?
no, this will be my year
through all of the pain
with it's endless refrain
and the way that she looked
when she said things just weren't the same
no, this will be my year
the old years are over
it's time to go to sleep
there are holes in your soul to sew
and there are promises to try and keep
before we're dead and gone
do you think you'll ever see
that every passing moment
is the youngest that you'll ever be?
oh, will this be my year?
no, this will be my year
through all of the pain
with it's endless refrain
and the way that she looked
when she said things just weren't the same
no, this will be my year
-Oh, Gravity -
she kissed my neck as her fingers tore into my skin
and whispered she loved me as her fingers tore into my skin
afterwards she purred and told me all the bad luck she had had
and I was real stoned, but it sounded like she called me dad
oh, gravity
you've got to loosen up
don't be so serious
we smiled goodbye and she told me my shirt was inside-out
I mumbled that it wasn't, but what it covered was, there was no doubt
she said it didn't matter, I was only going home anyway
I said that's true, but knew that it wasn't as I drove home the wrong way
oh, moonlight
don't you look at me that way
whatever you're thinking
I've got much worse things to say
I tried to be true, but weakness pushed the pedal to the floor
I turned up the radio so I didn't have to hear me anymore
when suddenly a kitten jumped in front of me and knew I was a liar
I heard it's bones break, and felt her crushed between the treads of my tire
oh, gravity
you've got to loosen up
oh, karma
I cried the whole way home
the whole way home
-Lord, You Are No Friend -
lord, you are no friend of mine
a waste of tears and a waste of time
smiles, though! I am leaving soon
and I'm not afraid to die
lord, you talk too god damn much
of where we'll go when the Earth is such
that we can't find her other holes
to force ourselves into
and I'm not afraid to die
take me young, for I am done
tasting the devil's bitter tongue
we've allowed to slither down our throats
now choke with me
lord, it seems you just won't quit
talking loud and talking shit
if best intentions lead to hell
what the hell am I to do, except shake me fist at you?
lord, will this life trample me?
or will I have luck and money?
I've tasted dirt off the devil's hooves
though not enough to die
not enough to die
take me young, for I am done
tasting the devil's bitter tongue
we've allowed to slither down our throats
now choke with me
it took no time to memorize
flight patterns in midnight skies
should've left home a year ago
now I don't know when I'll go
take me young, for I am done
tasting the devil's bitter tongue
we've allowed to slither down our throats
now choke with me
choke with me, my love
-Oh, Well -
you can't see me cause you've no will
oh, well
I can't see you cause you won't answer my calls
oh, well
we can't relate cause one time on acid I saw hell
you said I've never come back
I said oh, well
you can pretend you didn't turn into your mom
I can pretend all your chances are gone
your birthday came and went
I didn't call cause I had nothing nice to say
instead I got real drunk, but not for you
see, I was gonna do that anyway
now we only talk when we are loose
or when you've smoked yourself scared
yes, I say, I'm still your friend
I am your friend pretend
you can admit you get turned on when I get mad
I will admit sometimes I sound like my dad
my hell would be of mirrors and idle years
spent dry in this body of water
in a year or two we won't remember what we saw in us at all
we'll get together for a drink, we'll chew the fat
I'll make a joke that'll make you laugh
then we'll get all fuzzy in your car
then we'll go and take things far too far
my hell would be of mirrors and idle years
spent stagnant in this body of water
spent rotting in this town
-Aeroplane -
open eyes for something new
feeling green and slightly blue
no one's calls are getting through
better yet, just leave me where I stand
how often I have lighters
how rarely they are mine
a pointless observation
oh, well, that's fine
just leave me where I stand
and in time you took his name
which ain't too cool
but you ain't to blame
cause I was off on an aeroplane
to get down
I'm alive, she cried a thousand times
tangled up, I must unwind
can I write without this rhyme?
another time
just leave me where I stand
and in time you took his name
which ain't too cool
but you ain't to blame
cause I was off on an aeroplane
to get down
you leave me all of the time when I wake up
when I wake up old
and in time you took his name
which ain't too cool
but you ain't to blame
cause I was off on an aeroplane
to get down, to get down, to get down...
-Wine To Unwind -
every night she comes home to her baby boy
she's 22
and she smiles
wine to unwind
every night I come home to the same smoke-search for something new
and I sigh
wine to unwind
everytime I'm feelin low
she calls me up, cause she's feelin low
and we laugh, cause there's not much else to do
now and then, when things are red
I drink these words one time said
and they dance, thick as blood
down my tongue
wine to unwind
one of these days, when things aren't so gray
I'll leave this room and I'll face the day
but for now...
wine to unwind
-Days Tied To Days Tied To Days -
you call on me
when I'm fast asleep
truth be a love that I can not ignore
truth be a love that I can not ignore
you were poison
and I, a fool
to think I could dilute you
and be fine for a time
nothing complicates the future
like a complicated past
days tied to days tied to days disappear
you just sit there waiting
waiting away
this would work if we were young, and I was near, and you told truths
this would work if now was then, or you were home, or if I was new
call on me
truth be a love that I can not ignore
call on me
when I'm wide asleep
you said that you couldn't take anymore
your blood was upset
your bones tired and sore
as the night yawned, you called me
slightly drunk and drenched
you told me to come kiss you
just to drive halfway
but then he called, and she did cry
and in silence I did hold
do you know she never came back??
but atoms of me are still waiting
this would work if we were young, and I was near, and you told truths
this would work if now was then, or you were home, or if I was new
call on me
truth be a love that I can not ignore
call on me
when I'm wide asleep
you said that you couldn't take anymore
your bones were upset
your blood tired and sore
from the weight of wide eyes
and the feeling when you know something is lost
what can I say about the weather?
it has a way of falling down
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